L.O.V.E by Nat King Cole

It is my wedding song and I love it very very much. This song also used in "Parent Trap" movie.

L.O.V.E. - Nat King Cole

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

(trumpet instrumental)

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you

Because You Loved Me

This song sang by Celine Dion, back when my hubby & I were still dating. When I went shopping just now, the shopping complex playing this song. It brings back a lot of sweet memory. It brings back a lot of happiness in me and make me feel I am one in the million. LOL!!! Just wanted to share with you all.

Because You Loved Me - By Celine Dion
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

3rd day at "Fun Fun"

The moment we reached the main gate of "fun fun". He stand-up and view around and he smiled. Then I asked him "Do you want to go in?". His answer is YES with a big smile on this face. I am really relieve, at least he is not phobia towards it.

I still accompanied him till the end of class. He is really enjoying himself at this school. I not a patient person but I really salute those teachers and assistants and even those helpers (I guess they are less than 22 years old) are really really patients.

Third day of schools, children crying and screaming everywhere. Each of them are holding one child and comfort them. Some parents are there and some don't.

What my son doing? As long as I was sitting beside him, whatever happen in the surrounding regardless what children cried / screamed - he is still playing with his toy.

He is really OK with this "fun fun". Let hope we are right about this one.

2nd Day at "Fun Fun"

He overslept today. No matter how I called him to wake-up, how I move him - he still asleep. So no "fun fun" for him today.

We decided to enroll him to this play school. Cross our fingers and with a little pray n faith - he shall be fine in this "fun fun".

Another "Fun Fun"

Yesterday, my hubby & I were discussing maybe we should give fungates a try. We prepared everything in the morning and we left the house by 7.45am. I told my son we go to "fun fun", since he got phobia towards the word "school" - I used another name for school - I called this play school as "fun fun". He is unsure what is that, as long as no school, I take a different route and the whole journey was a pleasant. Praise the Lord for that.

When we reached "fun fun", we walked into the house and from the main window we could see they were placing lots and lots of toy on the table before the class begin. The moments, my son saw the toys, he told us to go in.

To my surprise, Angeline remembers us. I told Angeline, I want to see how my son adapt to this school and to make the long story short - I told her something happen and he is phobia towards school.

I could said my son really enjoy the toys in there. When the clocks approaching 9am, the children with parents started to come in as it was 2nd days of school for them. I joined the class from 9am till 11.30am (super thick face). Anyway, in this school - they only have 3 years old class.

The teachers + assistants + helpers are really patient. Their patient are equal to my hubby. When a child cried, they will carried them, comfort them and talk to them. Not just let them cry alone till they stopped by themselves.

All children, parents and teachers + assistants + helpers sanitized their hands at least 3 times in that 3 hours class. One - the moment you arrived. Two - before 1st snack. Three - before 2nd snack. Not only that, each time before snack they will wipe the table cleaned.

In that 3 hours, playing toys such as few types of puzzle, blocks, cooking, army, doctor & babies. Watching Barney only 15 minutes. Sing songs in English & Mandarin, live perform with guitar. LOL. Puppet singing. Bean bag acting. Blowing bubble (my son enjoying catching the bubble in the air).

In the end, he was happy that day and his mood was super good at home even though he still have slight cold n flu. Overall, not so bad.

No School Day!

He came down with fever after 3 days of flu & cough, so no school for him today. Anyway, I sort of decided to stop him from this play school for a while and work on his phobia towards school before enroll him to another school.

When I saw him behaving like that, it really make my heart twisted and started to think, what have I done to him.

One thing I learned from this : it is never ever visit a child care center / any kindergarten during school holiday or public holiday. Be sure visit them when they are teachers and children are around. From there, if you like what you see and only enroll.

For me, 3 things are the most important:

1. Teacher and helper / assistant must have plenty of patient.
   
2. Environment is spacious and bright.
3. Hygiene.

Marketing Day

Every Saturday / Sunday, depends on which day I am free to do my marketing. Today would be the day. Today is the day to purchase all the weekly grocery and stuffs. Today is market day!

Nothing new, my son said "NO MILK! NO CHANGE! NO SCHOOL!". I told him no school today. We are going to market to see fish, to buy sweet corn, to buy foods, to buy meat, to buy banana.

He told me "No fish! No Corn! No Food! No banana!". I use his favorite drink yacult to get him out from the house and yet still failed. Then I said we go kai kai - guess what he still refused.

Sigh...

Then I said, mommy is going, if you do not want to follow then you stay at home and wait for me to come back. The moment I close the front door, I heard him start screaming.

Then he follow me to the market with empty stomach and with his pajama. Sigh.

Daddy is driving. He instructed his daddy to turn right to go and see life fish but because we are going to market, daddy turned left. The moment daddy turned left, his tears start rolling. My goodness, he remember the route to school.

I assured him, I am not bringing him to school. He still show me a very sad face.

When we reached market. He refused to get down from the car. Then I said, stand up and see. no school here just market where mommy buy meat, sweet corn, yacult, egg and foods.

He stood up and view 360 degree, then only willing to get down from the car.

My observation, he is really not adapting to this play school and started to develop a phobia towards this school. Worst part, he is having flu, cough and fever.

Sigh...Each day is getting worst for him and for me.

What should I do???...

My day... going to be the worst

Today is the day where I am going to have some breakfast with my ex-colleagues. I awake earlier to prepare all the necessary stuff before going out.

When my son is up - he said "NO MILK! NO CHANGE! NO SCHOOL"

I said we are not going to school. We are going to "kai kai" (going out for walk). He told me "no KAI KAI!"

Sigh.....

Told him numerous time no school today but he does not seems to understand.

This time, my heart really twisted.

Fifth Day at Play School...

He was reluctant to go bed yesterday. His bed time normally is 9pm but he refused to sleep. I told him he needs his sleep and he need to go to school tomorrow. He said "NO SCHOOL".

He awake late today about 8am. When I saw him awake, I greet him "Good Morning!". And guess what, he told me "NO MILK!, NO CHANGE!, NO SCHOOL!". He is really getting smarter each day. Those are the things we do before we go to the school. This time he refused everything.

I am really having headache. and I wonder does all children have this school blue. I understand the transition period and it should be getting better each day but it is getting worst each day. I am really start to worried.

Regardless how, I still manage to get him to school even though we are running late. This time, he is getting very clever. He refused teacher to take him. He holding my hand and ask me to go to the classroom with him. I did. Reach the classroom door, I passed him his bag and said bye bye. Those tears are rolling down his cheeks. When the teacher tried to take him, he started to struggle and started to scream.

Seeing him like that really worry me. Sigh... what is going on here.....

I am just a normal human being. A normal mommy with a normal mind, normal brain and a normal body.

I am really tired and keep on wondering what happen at school and I am consistent worry about him as he is getting worst each day.

Tomorrow is Saturday and hopefully with no school for 2 days he will be alright.

Fourth Day at Play School

Today again I heard those 2 sentences "NO SCHOOL!" & "NO CHANGE!". I noticed him starting to have cough.

We still at school in the morning and come back in the afternoon. This time when he saw me at the school gate. He took his bag and his shoes without wearing him, walking towards the gate to join me. When the teacher slow in opening the gate, he keeps on shaking the gate. Sigh! Another sign of unhappiness.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better; and his coughing getting slightly worst.

Third Day at Play School

Morning battle started as usual with "NO SCHOOL". Today additional sentence "NO CHANGE".

But we still went to school. I noticed he had slight flu.

I told him I will be back when his school end. He still screamed when the teacher take him away from me. I thought he will be OK.

When I went back to fetched him, the teacher told me "Your son told others no to cry, mommy outside only."

Of course, I was surprised. I found his mucus all around the mouth. Sigh, why the teacher never clean up for him?

I asked him "Do you like school?". He told me "NO SCHOOL"!

I really wonder WHAT HAPPEN!!!!

Second Day at Play School

Mommy : We are going school, OK?

My son : "NO SCHOOL"!

Mommy : Huh? We are going to swim after school.

My son : swimming, yes. "NO SCHOOL"!

After an argument battle, reluctantly he followed me to the car and I drove him there. Then, he refused to get down from the car and keep asking for daddy.

When inside the school, cling on me like a koala bear. A teacher bring him in the class, he cried again till I can hear from outside.... really make my heart twisted. I told him numerous time, I will be waiting for him.

Apparently he was not inside his 3 years old class. He was walking around. A teacher open the glass door and he saw me and he told teacher "see, mommy". Then, the teacher close the glass door and pull the curtain.

Then my son, slide the glass door open and said "Halo, mommy and bye" then he slides the glass door close.

I thought finally.....

First Day at Play School...

He was not sure where I was about to bring him. He sat in the car, I drove him to school. He came down with me.

When he saw so many children crying, I think he was scare as he was standing just next to me without any moving, just observe.

Parents was not allow in the classroom, I waited outside for him to off school.

He was crying and crying for me and he knew I was outside and begging the teacher to bring him to me.

First day at school, well I would said no fun at all; specially saw him cried like that. Sigh...

When at home, he stick with me like a glue. Where ever I go, he will follow. If I sit on the bedside, he will be sitting next to me.

To me, he is worry I will be missing again. Ohhhhh, my little precious.